w E i J i E left his footprints on 22:28

There are nothing perfect in this world. When you are jobless, you felt emo for not having income and try looking for jobs. But when you found a job, you are emo because you realised that the job sucks and hate it to the max.

Finally found a job through agency. I really regret my decision after 1st day of work. It's not about the people, in fact, they are quite friendly and the manager are quite alright (just a bit too long-winded), it's about the jobscope. Yes indeed it's an admin job which I requested, however, admin work really are general terms. There are a lot of admin work in this world. This kind of admin work is very different from what I want. I find it really stressful upon knowing what kind of work I will be doing. To them, time is very precious and deadline have to be met within that day. I try to think positive, but it's really suffering in doing so. Regret looking for job through agency. I have to give 1 month notice, why not just kill me right now, at least I don't have to report to work with the long duration bus ride (actually the location is near, just that the only bus that I take everyday will make a round trip which drag the bus ride to the working destination).

I had my ' Civilian Converison Course' for 3 weeks already ( Only 20 days?? It seems like months to me). This course is a hard course to graduate. The graduation date will be unknown. Feeling rather depress. Will continue to search for better jobs.

Recently a got few friends whom I rarely seen for sometime, however, they suddenly just appear and say wanted to meet up over a meal to intro me some jobs or business. I get rather turn off by all these, was thinking what's their intention of all these. Or am I thinking too much?

w E i J i E left his footprints on 11:59

ORD-ed on 091109, that was 2 weeks ago. Went admin office at 10am to settle those administrative stuff, followed by collecting pink IC after away from me for 1 yr and 10 mths. Feelings on that day was just average, not too much excitement upon getting the pink IC. Unlike others (those ORD-ed or those who are still in service) who are so excited about ORD, just let nature take its course, no point thinking too much. That day will come.

Meet up with zf last Saturday at Bugis. Had dinner at Hans after getting his stuff. 20 minutes for my Fish n Chips, thought they had gone fishing for fishes to deep fry before serving it to me. Actual fact is they had totally forgotten my order, luckily my mood was good that day. After that, window shopping around the area. We chilled at Xin Wang and ordered ice tea with milk and ice tea with milk with coffee respectively. Had a chat till 2230h before heading home.

ORD dinner just now in camp. I was late for 10mins. Not much regulars turned up. They should still be overseas for some overseas exercises. Had a chat with the guys after not seeing for few weeks. Feeling for tonight's ORD dinner was average. Left at 9pm.

Time flies, to think the guys were planning for their offs and leaves last month, and it has already come to an end already, new courses starting next week. I gonna start work next week too.

w E i J i E left his footprints on 01:37

In 8 hrs' time, I gonna ORD from SAF as NSF. This is the day which most NSF are looking forwarding to. I'm not feeling excited at all, probably gonna feel lost and become jobless after tomorrow. Gonna start looking for job..

w E i J i E left his footprints on 00:58

Courses after courses, and this time will be my last course in MTW, which is the NSmen course. I was rather disappointed for not able to take ASC det in 10th ASC.

These few weeks were busy preparing with courses as well as ORD. Getting people to sign clearance, ensure all stores drawn out by me are returned or transfer to someone else's name. Having to ORD in few weeks' time, people were asking me how come I am still heavily involved in course as compared to those who are ORD-ing the same time as me get to clearing their offs and leaves. I really don't know what's the best answer to this question. I have been surpressing the ORD mood since the start of the course in order to stay focus in taking det. I finally left go of this feeling when I saw both of their cupboards are empty. At that moment, I really feel a sense of emptiness in me. I was feeling alone at that moment. I feel that I was really left out. However, things have to go on.

This week, I started packing my things into my big black duffel bag. Some memories ran through my mind, such as the first day being allocated to bunk #05-10 etc. This week is kind of an emo week. Last week was worst.

SumEx has ended on Thursday. This marks the end of my last field camp in MTW. Next field camp for me should be sometime away. Monday will be the last day of the course, also my last day before clearing long leave.

16 days to ORD...

w E i J i E left his footprints on 20:53

Finally got back my IPPT GOLD after losing it for 5 months! It was kind of a mild down period, but it's over. I had super low confident initially, as I tried running 2.4km with timing last Sunday, with the timing of 10.09 mins. That's like 20 seconds away from the minimum gold timing. Anyway, I gave it a try, even though it seems unlikely to get gold. Really thank Staff Koh for lending me his shoes to me and analyze the certain timings to be met. 9.34mins is my timing for 2.4km now, still hoping to run below 9 mins one day.

Yesterday went swim with zf and chill with him at Starbucks Tampines. We had a post and pre-ORD chat. It seems that I am gonna be lost for some time after ORD.

Finally went Sakura @ downtown east today. It was years ago I last went. The feeling was quite shiok. I think I gonna gain some weight after today's Sakura session. Met George at Sakura, my BMT mate. He will be leaving for London for his studies this Friday, all the best to him.

Next week new course starting, my last course for sure.

Happy Birthday Dad!!
Happy Birthday Andy Lau!

w E i J i E left his footprints on 23:59

This morning saw a group of people in civilian, realised that another group of people were waiting to collect their pink IC. Yea, Wei Liang's ORD today. He came in smart casual, awaiting for his pink IC and some document. He came over to our bunk to bid goodbye. After thus batch of people ORD, next in line will be my batch, finally. But that will be 50 plus more days.

Evening meet up with the poly friends for dinner at Bugis for steamboat. After eating all these, feel that the food was average only. After that, went over to Iluma for a rest, and order some yogurt ice cream with fruits. One portion cost around $5, a bit costly. Sang Amelia birthday song after her boyfriend arrived. Nothing too much, just a simple birthday song and cake cutting and marks the end of the gathering. Headed home after that and start thinking of the conversation with KY, regarding what's next after ORD. He and I actually share the same thoughts of what to do after my service, however, this may seems to be a tiring path to choose.

Anyway, before that, saw someone famous at Simei NTUC in the afternoon. lol.

I really dread having ulcer(s) on my mouth. It's really damn painful. Really lost appetite because of that. argh...

Feeling inferior...haiz.

w E i J i E left his footprints on 20:25

Meet up with Sean and ZF yesterday for jogging at East Coast Park, clocked for around 10km. After that, we headed for lunch at Jack's Place. First time there, order this Saturday set meal. Half way through, blackout. Funny thing is people will 'orh...' when the light goes off, and 'orh...' again when the light comes back.

Evening meet up with HY and HS for dinner at 85 market. Order all those usual stuff. After that, we went IKEA @ Tampines. I was hunting for carbinet and eventually, bought a standing light. Went to C.Nai Macau cafe at Siglap. First time there, tried the carrot cake and the 'yuan yang'. The 'yuan yang' is really good. Chill there till 12 plus before heading home. Studying sports seems to be a good idea. But life is unexpected. Shall think carefully what's next after ORD.

Happy Birthday Sean!