Courses after courses, and this time will be my last course in MTW, which is the NSmen course. I was rather disappointed for not able to take ASC det in 10th ASC.

These few weeks were busy preparing with courses as well as ORD. Getting people to sign clearance, ensure all stores drawn out by me are returned or transfer to someone else's name. Having to ORD in few weeks' time, people were asking me how come I am still heavily involved in course as compared to those who are ORD-ing the same time as me get to clearing their offs and leaves. I really don't know what's the best answer to this question. I have been surpressing the ORD mood since the start of the course in order to stay focus in taking det. I finally left go of this feeling when I saw both of their cupboards are empty. At that moment, I really feel a sense of emptiness in me. I was feeling alone at that moment. I feel that I was really left out. However, things have to go on.

This week, I started packing my things into my big black duffel bag. Some memories ran through my mind, such as the first day being allocated to bunk #05-10 etc. This week is kind of an emo week. Last week was worst.

SumEx has ended on Thursday. This marks the end of my last field camp in MTW. Next field camp for me should be sometime away. Monday will be the last day of the course, also my last day before clearing long leave.

16 days to ORD...