There are nothing perfect in this world. When you are jobless, you felt emo for not having income and try looking for jobs. But when you found a job, you are emo because you realised that the job sucks and hate it to the max.

Finally found a job through agency. I really regret my decision after 1st day of work. It's not about the people, in fact, they are quite friendly and the manager are quite alright (just a bit too long-winded), it's about the jobscope. Yes indeed it's an admin job which I requested, however, admin work really are general terms. There are a lot of admin work in this world. This kind of admin work is very different from what I want. I find it really stressful upon knowing what kind of work I will be doing. To them, time is very precious and deadline have to be met within that day. I try to think positive, but it's really suffering in doing so. Regret looking for job through agency. I have to give 1 month notice, why not just kill me right now, at least I don't have to report to work with the long duration bus ride (actually the location is near, just that the only bus that I take everyday will make a round trip which drag the bus ride to the working destination).

I had my ' Civilian Converison Course' for 3 weeks already ( Only 20 days?? It seems like months to me). This course is a hard course to graduate. The graduation date will be unknown. Feeling rather depress. Will continue to search for better jobs.

Recently a got few friends whom I rarely seen for sometime, however, they suddenly just appear and say wanted to meet up over a meal to intro me some jobs or business. I get rather turn off by all these, was thinking what's their intention of all these. Or am I thinking too much?

ORD-ed on 091109, that was 2 weeks ago. Went admin office at 10am to settle those administrative stuff, followed by collecting pink IC after away from me for 1 yr and 10 mths. Feelings on that day was just average, not too much excitement upon getting the pink IC. Unlike others (those ORD-ed or those who are still in service) who are so excited about ORD, just let nature take its course, no point thinking too much. That day will come.

Meet up with zf last Saturday at Bugis. Had dinner at Hans after getting his stuff. 20 minutes for my Fish n Chips, thought they had gone fishing for fishes to deep fry before serving it to me. Actual fact is they had totally forgotten my order, luckily my mood was good that day. After that, window shopping around the area. We chilled at Xin Wang and ordered ice tea with milk and ice tea with milk with coffee respectively. Had a chat till 2230h before heading home.

ORD dinner just now in camp. I was late for 10mins. Not much regulars turned up. They should still be overseas for some overseas exercises. Had a chat with the guys after not seeing for few weeks. Feeling for tonight's ORD dinner was average. Left at 9pm.

Time flies, to think the guys were planning for their offs and leaves last month, and it has already come to an end already, new courses starting next week. I gonna start work next week too.

In 8 hrs' time, I gonna ORD from SAF as NSF. This is the day which most NSF are looking forwarding to. I'm not feeling excited at all, probably gonna feel lost and become jobless after tomorrow. Gonna start looking for job..