Happy birthday Mummy!!!

Brand new month, brand new start. Cheers! Gonna turn in early tonight, opps! it's 0100h by the way...

New jobs!! Really need a permanent job now! Current job is quite boring. Got pros and cons though, but perm job will be much stable. Need to apply for school too. Busy busy! No money really sucks! Cannot live without money seriously. Slight change in life now, still trying to adapt. But no idea how long it will take. Gonna let nature take its course...no matter what happen, I will try to be happy. (keyword is try, no promise =) )

1st post in year 2011! long time never blog already. It's time to get back to blogging. First thing to do is to change blogskin. Have to wait till I am freer first. =) Stay tuned!

23 more days to Sundown Marathon.
12 more days to driving test.

But I am seriously not prepared for the a/m. Working life is busy. No time for a lot of things. I am kind of worry about coping for part time degree course. Anyway, working life sucks.

Lastly, 8 more days to jobless.

Month of April passes rather fast. Had my 1st race in this newly joined team. Didn't managed to clinched any cookies back. Upcoming race will be in mid may. Joining club team compared to school team really makes a big difference. I really really really miss those days, where the bond and team fighting spirit is really there. I miss the dinner session with the guys after training at techno coffee shop. I miss the after-training hangout at suntec city/Marina Square. I miss all those moments. I really really really hope to be in the school team again. But then, seems like no more chance already. Why didn't I like business courses in SIM? Why didn't I get better results to get into local University? Why am I living in regrets? Whycan't I just be like the majority?

Extension after extension, from 31st march to 15th apr to 30th apr and now till 15th may. No more extension after this as the work is getting boring.

Went for the AED interview last Friday. The interview was at my alma mater. Familiar environment, but unfamilar faces. 4 interviewers interviewed me. (Should be some big shot from the school). I was rather surprised that the interview went on like this. Feel kind of different. No Q and A which lead me to think that am I doomed for the interview? By the way, I did something rather wrong for a job interview. My hair was quite long (after trimming few days ago) and I was late!! However, I feel that the interview went on rather smoothly. I did not attempt to 'act' like someone and just be nature. That's what is important right? hahaha...

Received 2 letters 2 days ago. One was from NTU and the other from Air Force. I was officially rejected by NTU (Expected, just that wanting to try as there is a glimpse of hope, so shouldn't give up right?). I opened up the other letter, it is also another rejection letter for the position of Air Operation System Specialist. I was wondering, since when did I apply for this vocation? I called them the next day, after some checking, they say that that was my 2nd choice (But I really don't remembering applying for that). I asked how about my 1st choice. He says, " For ACS, there is no more vacancies for ACS. You can try re-applying next year from Jan to March." After hearing this, I really feel that the whole world is collasping and was quite sad. Seems like no job wants me, not even RSAF. this double blow really saddens me and ruin my day. I feel helpless. AED seems to be my only hope now. I hope for the best.

Happened to browse through the PESS website, seems like the another alternative route for me. I was wondering if they only choose good polytechnic results.

Driving test on 18th May. Revision lesson attended: One. Please wish me good luck, I don't wish to fail again.

Finally gotten intenet access in the office. Current my area is being revamped, so the 3 of us (temp staff of corporate admin) managed to work inside a meeting. Damn shiok la, can do anything when the door is close. But then didn't managed to surf the 'entertaining' websites as there is access denied. But good enough already. 4 months afrer ORD, SIM registration ends end of march. I really enjoy campus life, but then seems like I am not fated to have it this time. I am so envious of those who get to continue their Full Time University, especially in local university. How I wish I can really turn back time, really work harder and get into a local university, with the course I like, in NTU. Well, I believe not everobody gets to get what they want, that's life, and I always say life sucks.

Really appriciate to those who had given me their opinions and advices regarding my next chapter of my life. However, decision making is always hard, fearing that the history repeat again. Some say it's like mental block now, i think is more of over cautious, which is equally bad. I thought of signing on, however, negative comments keep coming in. MTE is 5 to 6 yrs, is a very long period for a stepping stone, however, this might be one of the better option left.

My contract is coming to an end. My boss was asking if I am willing to extend my contract till mid april. Anyway, I had agreed, however, still hoping SSC still have vacancy to fill in. I can no longer survuve my pathetic pay with temp job. I gonna starting looking for a better paid perm job soon (if I can find one which is not IT-related).

Working life is kind of boring. I can't imagine how my work life will be like. So look forward to student/campus life~

What are friends in the world of working adults? In their daily life, are they facing a group of friends or colleagues? I am starting to dread working life.

Work work work...can't believe this temp job is really draining me. Though is a short 2 months contract, but time seems to be passing rather slow. Now early march, 27 more days to go, and I mean 27 work days, which means no rest day till the end of march. It's challenging though, but tiring too. More to come in mid march. Cash is running low since dunno when. Pay day faster come, and also those people owing me money, O$P$!

With such busy schedule, doubt will have much meet-up sessions. I will be missing my training on weekends. Is it worth it? No choice, unless...

Happy belated birthday Mum!

Oh man...it's only the 10th of Feb! When is pay day gonna come?? still got long way man!

Whole day in office doing my work quietly, feels good when no one's looking for you. Boss, you can go on leave! Leave those jobs to me can already.. How I wish everyday is just like today. Well, more work coming up I guess? More OT...When? Please don't take away my weekends.

I want an iPhone! I gonna work harder than...

1st post in year 2010!! and it's close to mid feb already. Anyway, Congrats to those ORD-ing on Feb. ORD-ed exactly 3 months ago on the same day! 3 months seems quite long when you are doing nothing.

6th Feb is a happy occasion to remember. This very day belongs to the newly wed George and Felicia who finally became husband and wife. Went to their wedding on Saturday, seeing those powerpoint slides and videos, I really feel happy for them from the bottom of my heart. 7 to 8 years is indeed a long relationship to maintain, and I believe that it takes 2 hands to clap to accommodate each other and build the trust. Seeing some old friends at the dinner. For those closer ones, will be busy chatting their recent happenings, however for some, it's as simple as a 'hi' and 'bye'.

Sunday's dinner will be scheduled for DB meet-up with the guys. As ZF will be leaving for his studies in Australia, a simple meet-up was organised. Went to this Italian Resturant and tried Squid Ink spaghetti. Well, kind of regretted after the first try. Chill a while at the nearby bar for a beer. Next meet-up will be soon, I hope.

Monday evening was for my NS cum AI/MTW guys. It was a big group of them and we had steamboat at Sembawang. It really feels good to see them again, and I do admit I kind of miss those days in camp. I miss my dept, miss bunk, miss my bed, miss our jokes and miss MTW office. Well, life has to go on...

Been slacking for too long already, finally got my self a job. But the problem still exists. Business or Sport Science? haiz...been thinking of this for a long long time. I am really scare. What can I do? Follow my heart or be more practical?

There are nothing perfect in this world. When you are jobless, you felt emo for not having income and try looking for jobs. But when you found a job, you are emo because you realised that the job sucks and hate it to the max.

Finally found a job through agency. I really regret my decision after 1st day of work. It's not about the people, in fact, they are quite friendly and the manager are quite alright (just a bit too long-winded), it's about the jobscope. Yes indeed it's an admin job which I requested, however, admin work really are general terms. There are a lot of admin work in this world. This kind of admin work is very different from what I want. I find it really stressful upon knowing what kind of work I will be doing. To them, time is very precious and deadline have to be met within that day. I try to think positive, but it's really suffering in doing so. Regret looking for job through agency. I have to give 1 month notice, why not just kill me right now, at least I don't have to report to work with the long duration bus ride (actually the location is near, just that the only bus that I take everyday will make a round trip which drag the bus ride to the working destination).

I had my ' Civilian Converison Course' for 3 weeks already ( Only 20 days?? It seems like months to me). This course is a hard course to graduate. The graduation date will be unknown. Feeling rather depress. Will continue to search for better jobs.

Recently a got few friends whom I rarely seen for sometime, however, they suddenly just appear and say wanted to meet up over a meal to intro me some jobs or business. I get rather turn off by all these, was thinking what's their intention of all these. Or am I thinking too much?

ORD-ed on 091109, that was 2 weeks ago. Went admin office at 10am to settle those administrative stuff, followed by collecting pink IC after away from me for 1 yr and 10 mths. Feelings on that day was just average, not too much excitement upon getting the pink IC. Unlike others (those ORD-ed or those who are still in service) who are so excited about ORD, just let nature take its course, no point thinking too much. That day will come.

Meet up with zf last Saturday at Bugis. Had dinner at Hans after getting his stuff. 20 minutes for my Fish n Chips, thought they had gone fishing for fishes to deep fry before serving it to me. Actual fact is they had totally forgotten my order, luckily my mood was good that day. After that, window shopping around the area. We chilled at Xin Wang and ordered ice tea with milk and ice tea with milk with coffee respectively. Had a chat till 2230h before heading home.

ORD dinner just now in camp. I was late for 10mins. Not much regulars turned up. They should still be overseas for some overseas exercises. Had a chat with the guys after not seeing for few weeks. Feeling for tonight's ORD dinner was average. Left at 9pm.

Time flies, to think the guys were planning for their offs and leaves last month, and it has already come to an end already, new courses starting next week. I gonna start work next week too.

In 8 hrs' time, I gonna ORD from SAF as NSF. This is the day which most NSF are looking forwarding to. I'm not feeling excited at all, probably gonna feel lost and become jobless after tomorrow. Gonna start looking for job..

Courses after courses, and this time will be my last course in MTW, which is the NSmen course. I was rather disappointed for not able to take ASC det in 10th ASC.

These few weeks were busy preparing with courses as well as ORD. Getting people to sign clearance, ensure all stores drawn out by me are returned or transfer to someone else's name. Having to ORD in few weeks' time, people were asking me how come I am still heavily involved in course as compared to those who are ORD-ing the same time as me get to clearing their offs and leaves. I really don't know what's the best answer to this question. I have been surpressing the ORD mood since the start of the course in order to stay focus in taking det. I finally left go of this feeling when I saw both of their cupboards are empty. At that moment, I really feel a sense of emptiness in me. I was feeling alone at that moment. I feel that I was really left out. However, things have to go on.

This week, I started packing my things into my big black duffel bag. Some memories ran through my mind, such as the first day being allocated to bunk #05-10 etc. This week is kind of an emo week. Last week was worst.

SumEx has ended on Thursday. This marks the end of my last field camp in MTW. Next field camp for me should be sometime away. Monday will be the last day of the course, also my last day before clearing long leave.

16 days to ORD...

Finally got back my IPPT GOLD after losing it for 5 months! It was kind of a mild down period, but it's over. I had super low confident initially, as I tried running 2.4km with timing last Sunday, with the timing of 10.09 mins. That's like 20 seconds away from the minimum gold timing. Anyway, I gave it a try, even though it seems unlikely to get gold. Really thank Staff Koh for lending me his shoes to me and analyze the certain timings to be met. 9.34mins is my timing for 2.4km now, still hoping to run below 9 mins one day.

Yesterday went swim with zf and chill with him at Starbucks Tampines. We had a post and pre-ORD chat. It seems that I am gonna be lost for some time after ORD.

Finally went Sakura @ downtown east today. It was years ago I last went. The feeling was quite shiok. I think I gonna gain some weight after today's Sakura session. Met George at Sakura, my BMT mate. He will be leaving for London for his studies this Friday, all the best to him.

Next week new course starting, my last course for sure.

Happy Birthday Dad!!
Happy Birthday Andy Lau!

This morning saw a group of people in civilian, realised that another group of people were waiting to collect their pink IC. Yea, Wei Liang's ORD today. He came in smart casual, awaiting for his pink IC and some document. He came over to our bunk to bid goodbye. After thus batch of people ORD, next in line will be my batch, finally. But that will be 50 plus more days.

Evening meet up with the poly friends for dinner at Bugis for steamboat. After eating all these, feel that the food was average only. After that, went over to Iluma for a rest, and order some yogurt ice cream with fruits. One portion cost around $5, a bit costly. Sang Amelia birthday song after her boyfriend arrived. Nothing too much, just a simple birthday song and cake cutting and marks the end of the gathering. Headed home after that and start thinking of the conversation with KY, regarding what's next after ORD. He and I actually share the same thoughts of what to do after my service, however, this may seems to be a tiring path to choose.

Anyway, before that, saw someone famous at Simei NTUC in the afternoon. lol.

I really dread having ulcer(s) on my mouth. It's really damn painful. Really lost appetite because of that. argh...

Feeling inferior...haiz.

Meet up with Sean and ZF yesterday for jogging at East Coast Park, clocked for around 10km. After that, we headed for lunch at Jack's Place. First time there, order this Saturday set meal. Half way through, blackout. Funny thing is people will 'orh...' when the light goes off, and 'orh...' again when the light comes back.

Evening meet up with HY and HS for dinner at 85 market. Order all those usual stuff. After that, we went IKEA @ Tampines. I was hunting for carbinet and eventually, bought a standing light. Went to C.Nai Macau cafe at Siglap. First time there, tried the carrot cake and the 'yuan yang'. The 'yuan yang' is really good. Chill there till 12 plus before heading home. Studying sports seems to be a good idea. But life is unexpected. Shall think carefully what's next after ORD.

Happy Birthday Sean!

Today saw Justin and David in their civilian attire. oh ya, they are ORD-ing today. They came for their pink IC which is away from their wallet for nearly 2 years. Next in line to ORD will be people Ord-ing on September, and next will be November. It's coming very soon.

August onwards will be busy period, no time to slack. New course started already, I am the DI today, which was 4 to 5 mths from my last DI. Things don't go very smoothly today.

AHM on sunday, I am looking forward.

SP conv cse is over. Today is the last day of the course. Just came back from KH camp, had ER from work. 1 week is really fast, having a short stay over there to meet up with the rest also. Now don't really feel like going back to my camp. From tomorrow onwards, will have a hard time till the end as course just started today. Really kind of dread going back, probably starting to feel the 'mood' already. 2-digit to ORD, finally. Guard on Saturday, which makes me feeling even sian. Having some evil thoughts, but unlikely it will happen.

Wake up early in the morning to watch the 'live' channel on the eclipse. It really show how some parts of China really from brightness to darkness, and back to brightness within few minutes. If it's happening in ancient times, perhaps this kind of phenomenon would have been a frightening experience.

Went supper with Wilson just now at east coast park with his bike. The feeling at the bike was shiok, with the wind blowing, but it's kind of scary, could be due to his speed of 100km/h at the expressway. Didn't eat much at east coast. We went over to the resting shed and chit chat for hours. He was telling me the people in his working area. It's really weird people there. Got smart but super low EQ with suspected mental problem people, got computer-illiterate superior, got stubborn cum thick skin senior etc. I thought that old man in my wing is weird enough, to think there are even weirder people exist.

Back in Bedok, feeling hungry. I ate a plate of bee hoon. Not too bad though, yet to explore more food in this area.


Happy belated birthday, Kah Wah.
Happy birthday YONG KWANG!!!